Your colour is purple: On Self-esteem

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The Colour of Low Self Esteem Poem by Nayyirah Waheed

To a dear friend hurting today. Surely you’re worthy. Surely our value is yours to own. Surely we share a loving space. Your colour is purple and pleading. Mirror, mirror, she is listening. ⁣

⁣We all might’ve tried. But we can’t impress them into seeing us. We can’t convince them of our sacred breath. Desire is an illusion. It does not reciprocate. It does not feel. It does not fulfill. Only you can do that. I love you.⁣

Grace,

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We are home.

You are virtual. You can change your landscape. -don Miguel tells us⁣

⁣And # 4 reminds us of the safety & security of home. It connects our mind, body and spirit to physical structure. We are the foundation. We are home. Home is wherever we are. ⁣— TheeAmazingGrace

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But you don’t have any wrinkles

I made these faces after my neighbor exclaimed, “But you don’t have any wrinkles!” After  learning I was more than twice her age, yet she appeared twice as mine. Yikes! 💆🏾💁🏽‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️🤓⁣

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This ain’t for poems sake

This ain’t for poems sake. Although I wrote a poem when it happened. Working on sharing my experience. To enLIGHTEN the load. My right to a scattered brain rant. An expression of the pain he left. Vimeo. Link in bio. Had to talk about it. It’s so many of us black folks out here that’ve been prodded and trolled by white folk just because they want to get next to who we are. They want to own some part of our experience. Our essence. A painful tune.

Warmest,

Grace

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Black Cotton

I got out of the car and walked across the field. The best way I can describe the feeling is for you to imagine all of the blackness between every star wrapping itself around our bodies like a heavy, warm blanket. Melanin matter aligned ALL of my chakras the instant. I wept. I kneeled. I was humbled to my knees. I took deep ujjayi breaths. Channeling the ocean like sounds for love, for forgiveness. Endless landscape stretched like a deep abyss on that back Alabama dirt road. Spirits. My ancestors. Their ancestors hovered over my body. Sankfoa. I could hear and see all types of painful things. Pain. I could see and feel freedom-deep within their eyes, although shackled in body, never in mind. I could feel the triumph. I could feel my sneakers sinking deep into the moist red clay beneath. Took 25 minutes to pick 12 seeds. Fingers split open-bleeding. I felt the calm-weight lift from my back bone the day my ancestors invited me to pick black cotton. ⁣

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I got out of the car and walked across the field. The best way I can describe the feeling is for you to imagine all of the blackness between every star wrapping itself around our bodies like a warm, heavy blanket. Melanin matter aligned ALL of my chakras the instant. I wept. I kneeled. I was humbled to my knees. I took deep ujjayi breaths. Channeling the ocean like sounds for love, for forgiveness. Endless landscape stretched like a deep abyss on that back Alabama dirt road. Spirits. My ancestors. Their ancestors hovered over my body. Sankfoa. I could hear and see all types of painful things. Pain. I could see and feel freedom-deep within their eyes, although shackled in body, never in mind. I could feel the triumph. I could feel my sneakers sinking deep into the moist red clay beneath. Took 25 minutes to pick 12 seeds. Fingers split open-bleeding. I felt the calm-weight lift from my back bone the day my ancestors invited me to pick black cotton. ⁣ #afrikanface #africandiaspora #allblacklivesmatter #ancestors #antebellumsouth #blackliberation #blackcotton #chattelslavery #cotton #cottonfields #curiosity #darkmatter #divineorder #girlrillavintage #griot #huntsvillealabama #mendewoman #naga #roothealer #spacebetweenthestars #stylelikeu #tbt #theeamazinggrace #vibratehigher #westafrican #whatsunderneath

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We are all problematic Af

@ladyspeech reminds us that “ALL of us are problematic as phuck.”
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This resonates with me. About how hurt people experiences can be so unsafe at times. Been seeing a ton of black “public figures” or folks that pride themselves as “community leaders” using their platforms to promote division, toxic masculinity, fat shaming, homophobic speech, and so on. I too had to learn to stop the sanctimony to get to the heart of what matters.

Imagine how many MORE of our people we can reach and build with if we adopted inclusivity? IF WE KNEW THAT ALL OUR DNA IS SACRED AND THAT ALL OUR BLACK LIVES MATTER? Not that ole, “If you raising him right he wouldn’t be gay and twerking on social media” or “If you waited for marriage he wouldn’t have cheated on you.” And so on… It’s sickening because we think we’re actually helping by taking a stance in opposition to-things that we have no power to control. And folks are agreeing with us, rallying together like a lynch mob.

It’s important to ask ourselves if sharing our 60 sec rant or LIVE VIDEO will help or harm? Could we be sharing ingrained colonizers views? Just sayin….

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@ladyspeech reminds us that “ALL of us are problematic as phuck.”⁣ ⁣ This resonates with me. About how hurt people experiences can be so unsafe at times. Been seeing a ton of black “public figures” or folks that pride themselves as “community leaders” using their platforms to promote division, toxic masculinity, fat shaming, homophobic speech, and so on. I too had to learn to stop the sanctimony to get to the heart of what matters.⁣ ⁣ Imagine how many MORE of our people we can reach and build with if we adopted inclusivity? IF WE KNEW THAT ALL OUR DNA IS SACRED AND THAT ALL OUR BLACK LIVES MATTER? Not that ole, “If you raising him right he wouldn’t be gay and twerking on social media” or “If you waited for marriage he wouldn’t have cheated on you.” And so on… It’s sickening because we think we’re actually helping by taking a stance in opposition to-things that we have no power to control. And folks are agreeing with us, rallying together like a lynch mob.⁣ ⁣ It’s important to ask ourselves if sharing our 60 sec rant or LIVE VIDEO will help or harm? Could we be sharing ingrained colonizers views? Just sayin….⁣ ⁣ #afrikanface #allblacklivesmatter #blacklove #blacknessisnotamonolith #community #girlrillavintage #inclusivity #problematicafchallenge #weareallproblematicaf #wecanalldobetter

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Reflections of a pass love

E1A9AB9A-574E-4A7B-88E8-891B81C292E4Honestly. When your ex lover or if you are the former lover that falls in love with someone else there ain’t shit that can be controlled about it. Life. And life must run it’s course. And we only benefit from trusting our experiences, cherishing our disappointments, feeling them like goose pimples, thanking them for teaching us many things, for being invaluable to us-knowing that life will always work for us.

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0563F04B-C59D-4168-AB61-967571CE3AC2.jpegReflecting on my past lover. How blessed we are to know each other. How we learned to stop seeking the experience we had in other people. And to stay open to a different type of transformative love, knowing that our love is eternal. We are amicable now. Giving thanks to mama Oshun for being a channel for healing always.

Gracie,

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