A collage I made about 5-years ago when I was pregnant, depicts a boy next to a tree, has pieces of my first set of #locs in it. It now sits as a magnet on my refrigerator, a reminder of my youth, my child that didn’t make it, and the ambition I always sought from creating art. My ambition is dormant still and I’ve spent too kmuch time trying to tell my story just the right way not knowing I’ve been living my story all along. I caption this, No one knows tomorrow, yet knowing tomorrow doesn’t matter just as long as the roots are branched widely to anchor the trees that will come from it. We don’t need to know tomorrow. We have to breathe in such a way that tomorrow will never have to search for us. Never need to question our existence cause our existence is alive in the trees. My story is everything. #theeamazinggrace #legacy #live #life #love #self
Category Archives: GirlrillaINSPIRATION
Stop the Music Sometimes
On Being Human
Some parts of me are delicate. Some parts of me are hard as a rock. I blame it on the human experience. Being thrust from spirit filled spaces to common ground really complicates things. Really makes life a difficult task. Its like we have to unlearn everything we’ve ever learned on the other side of our lives. And some is great, but most is treacherous. And loving unconditional is essential-its damn hard though. #theeamazinggrace
I Curse You With Love!
“I curse you with love”, I shouted to one of my clients on the edge of heartache today. She made eye contact and cried. We never took our eyes off of each other. No words. We understood. The moment two humans unintentionally change each others lives. Gonna miss working there. -Gracie ❤
#theeamazinggrace #love #peace #human #people #heartbreak
Remember Life Before the Boat?
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To my BOLD people of Afrikan descent please accept these words I wrote and performed. I felt shame when I watched it because it wasn’t my best, but I had to remember why I wrote them and how much I’m inspired by you and there is no shame in that. My words come from someplace and are important, so I want to share them. Once I commit them to memory its a wrap tho lol! Shoutout to Coco for recording! #lifebeforetheboat #wecomefromsomeplace #girlrillavintage #blacklivesmatter #theeamazinggrace
Remember life before the boat? How we honored each other? Loved on each other? Made a big ole fuss over each other? And how shade was nothing more than shelter to catch some cool? When oiling scalp time was our love time? Or when we would hunt, fish, and gather wild honey? Or sat silent just because. Or how the OLAYOS would be all loud IN THEY BACKYARD SINGING TO THE MOON LIKE, lululululu? And how those thick and small would do the Mapouka in the rain? OR TWERKING IS WHAT THEY CALL IT NOW A DAYS? How those hurricane movements were expressions of the joy we felt at our bodies ability to move like that? Oh and we laughed cause there was no judgment only love and safety? And how we worshipped the sun for how it kissed us? And how we held feasts for the MudjaJi-The Rain Mother, for CALLING ON THE RAIN TO BRING US food? How vibrant the colors of our people? And how we wore little to cover our skin, so we could decorate it, with elaborate jewels, COLORFUL BEADS, SYMBOLIC war paint, and markings? We come from someplace.
To my BOLD people of AfriKan descent sitting here today I thank you! I thank you for existing, for breathing, for living your best life in spite of yourselves. Thank you for letting me speak to you like this. We exist! Each carefully handcrafted by the CREATIVE. We are the foundation of love. And I remember the harshness attached to each one of us and how we HOLD OUR HEADS UP HIGH TO SURVIVE even today, but love still fills our SPACE-Spirits look around, see how we NEVER FORGOT TO gather like this? Give yourselves credit for the the things you do and this Unity peace is beautiful. And though we weren’t acknowledged by our names, more by our frames we were never insignificant. And we exist for every reason. Go ‘head be as brilliant as you wanna be! Be as flawed and ratchet as you wanna be. ‘Cause our stories are now being told from our own mouths and we reclaim our own bodies cause Being of Melanin is A GIFT from God-Our skin is a visual poem from God. To US beautiful people of AfriKan descent born in America, born in Dominican, born in Cuba, born in Trinidad, born in Germany WE AFRIKANS. LIKE BABA KWAME TURE SAID, ONCE YOU JUST AFRIKAN AIN’T NO QUESTION. And I DON’T NEED TO KNOW YOU TO LOVE YOU TO TEARS OR TO HOLD YOU ALIVE IN MY HEART. YOU ARE VALUABLE NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT IT. You come from some place.
Remember life before the boat? How we honored each other and loved ON each other? And IT’S COOL IF YOU DON’T cause that’s what I’m here for, a messenger, a GRIOT, a CARRIER OF OUR CULTURES STORIES, OUR STORIES, MORE ALIVE THAN DEAD. OUR RICH AND AMBITIOUS STORIES-MORE ALIVE THAN DEAD! ESPECIALLY WITH YOU HERE WITH ME TODAY. BEING OF MELANIN IS SO MUCH MORE THAN BEING BLACK. WE GOTTA GET BACK TO falling in love with OURSELVES. TO BEING OUR Own endless possibility. AND CAN YOU Imagine A world where us AfriKan descendants suddenly started speaking our OWN native languages Wherever we are in the world? Like the words just FALL out of the sky and into our mouths? NOW THAT WOULD BE THE DAY-Explosive AND SONIC LIKE THE SOUNDS OF AFRIKAN drums in Congo square, IN PROSPECT PARK. HEALING IS WHAT WE NEED. HUGS IS WHAT WE NEED. LOVE IS WHAT WE NEED. ONE LOVE TO THE PEOPLE! -Gracie THEE AMAZING GRACE Berry
Closure Is Mine-Really by Thee Amazing Grace
In my youth I needed closure from everyone I felt hurt by. It was so intense that I would spend countless hours and days drafting letters trying to convince them that the “only” way I could “move on” was through the many ways they could give me closure.
As I’m aging, I realize that those things weren’t for them, but for me. They served as excuses to keep them around or to get their attention in hopes of changing the hurt. I’m learning that closure is mine-really.
This is not to say that I don’t experience hurt feelings from unresolved issues, but I’m more aware now than ever that it is not anyones responsibility to give me closure. Also that the discomfort is normal. We can choose how we move on which is priceless in our own healing. One love to those.
—TheeAmazingGrace ♥️
#afrikanface #closureisminereally #girlrillavintage #girlrillainspiration #theeamazinggrace
Ex Lovers Won’t Always Show Up Like This By Thee Amazing Grace
In all honesty when your ex lover or if you are the former lover that falls in love with someone else there ain’t shit that can be done about it. This too is part of life. And life must run it’s course and we only benefit from trusting our experience, cherishing our disappointments, feeling them like goose pimples, thanking them for teaching us many things, for being invaluable to us-knowing that life won’t always show up like this. #mourningaloss #hissilenceismygoldenticketout #theeamazinggrace #ancient #gracieberry
In honor of my black mama month
while we on the topic of honoring women, i wish to honor my mommy. and all those close to my bloodline know how she raised hell, and how i hate crackhead jokes because of how real crack is and how her addiction to it ruined our young lives. in the same breath i want to thank her for giving me one simple thing that i’ve never gone short of and that’s love. my mama taught me how to love. she told me a story of my birth and how she breast fed me ’cause that’s what the doctors said was good and healthy for me. she told me how irking it was cause i was always up under her and hungry all the time, but she said she wouldn’t have it no other way-she said, i needed her and that made her feel good. in fact she breast fed up to 4 of my 9 siblings before the drugs took over. and you know she made shame look dignified when she would hold her head high and demand our protection before she got high. she would fly as we watched from the corner. she always smiled as coke foamed to the corners of her mouth-when she reached the top and oh god she would come crashing down and i held her head-held the broken fragments. Still in love with you mama. The first woman I ever loved. #Restinpower #womensmonth #myblackmamamonth
The way I live is my bizzness
I’ve been thinking a lot about one of my brothers that’s no longer alive, and how the way he lived seemed a miracle-friends called him “Lucky”. And while this is not easy, especially for me (gawd knows), we must trust the life our loved ones are living. It’s more productive to love them wherever they are-as is. I used to get so angry, sick, judgmental, protective from the choices he made. He would put himself in near death situations and laugh about it. Ever hear family say that ain’t no good for you, and you do it anyway. It’s painful to watch, yet it must be done. My brother wound up dead from living exactly the way he wanted. He never flinched in the fire. He was always brave and lived just that way. It’s bitter sweet. I understand now. #dontletnobodystopyou #honoryourspirit #letgoofcontrol #takecareofyou
-Gracie Berry-Thee Amazing Grace #theeamazinggrace
Pictures Are Worth More Than Words
I’m often asked by people getting to know me, why I take so many pictures as I have so many photos of myself and the people and things I love in my home and other places. Many folks aren’t aware that I grew up in abject poverty, was a ward of the court since age 5, was the eldest of 9, was homeless for most of my childhood, was abused physically, mentally and emotionally, and wasn’t enrolled in school until much later. I remember my first grade teacher, Mrs. Joel. She had a kindness that was like the warmest sweater wrapping you up on a cold day. She was a tiny woman and so excitable about picture day. She sent me home with a picture package and told me to dress in my best and to remember to smile for the camera. I was hype skipping home from school. I took the package to my grandmother and she ripped it to shreds in front of me. She laughed saying something like she ain’t got no money for no damn pictures. Every year after that was the same, so eventually I stopped bringing it home. The closest I got to school pics was the group ones we took with our class and teacher and even then I didn’t get a copy. The pic below was my first school picture at age 14. I was so proud of that and nervous too that’s why I didn’t smile as big. I braided my pony tale down my back and rocked my ole famous mullet style cut. Silly me I didn’t know that the pic would only show the front unlike the different packages showed, so my pony tale is lost in history lol! I got my first camera at age 15 and well haven’t stopped since. I love the skin I’m in and take lots of pictures of it. The memories. Those irreplaceable memories that live in those photos are my visual poem that speaks in a language that is mine to understand. ❤
-Gracie Berry
A collage I made about 5-years ago when I was pregnant, depicts a boy next to a tree, has pieces of my first set of #locs in it. It now sits as a magnet on my refrigerator, a reminder of my youth, my child that didn’t make it, and the ambition I always sought from creating art. My ambition is dormant still and I’ve spent too kmuch time trying to tell my story just the right way not knowing I’ve been living my story all along. I caption this, No one knows tomorrow, yet knowing tomorrow doesn’t matter just as long as the roots are branched widely to anchor the trees that will come from it. We don’t need to know tomorrow. We have to breathe in such a way that tomorrow will never have to search for us. Never need to question our existence cause our existence is alive in the trees. My story is everything. #theeamazinggrace #legacy #live #life #love #self



